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Being someone whom you are not is the thing that really sucks. Although pretending that you are like that someone is somehow could bring you on top or rather a fool with a great fall.

Whats the difference? Being someone is already in the state of assuming that he is that "somebody". Pretending however is plain assuming the character of that "person" but not necessarily be the "person".

Right now i want to pretend that I am from a small town with a farm for a home. Doing so many chores that i can not entertain a single thought of the things i want. Having friends and family who really cares. Saving them with my life at stake. Going through everything for their sake and  being inlove is the last thing on the list.

Although I am not Clark Kent. Not a hero. and definitely not superman. But the feeling of doing something so great is the feeling that i want. No can do i gues. These things that I said may all sound crazy. But crazy as it may seem why bother reading it? Hell I may become the laughing stock of the crowd or the fool with a great fall but the thing is, if I won’t try I would’nt be "someone" of my own…

Someday i will make it, Under this twisted weather i will. Nevertheless God won’t permit me to. Day after day I always think of the possibilities of being there. Am not actually losing it. Young as i am now, i am really determined though confused…

Started to stay  focus but something is troubling me. I am not actually sure what it is but I seem missing something or someone.  Whatever/whoever that might be its mine to find it out, alone. One thing is for sure, it’s not from my past…