Nothing to worry!!!

February 18th, 2007 by mix-all-mighty

At last!!! this night is worry free… Nothing bothers me and i am enjoying every single minute. But come to think of it, i kind a like being in a pressure state or rather say be worried bout things to ponder like "oh my God next week na final examination!!!" Well i’m not worried bout that yet… I just want to feel numb for a while although i’m in a senti mode. hehehe. I just want to write a blog about this day.

From the time i woke up, i thought my day is already set. Set up in bed for the whole day actually( I REALLY WANTED TO MAKE OUT THE SLEEPLESS NIGHT THESE COUPLE OF DAYS ). I never thought of really going to campaign for senator in ongpin but i did. Oh well, for the things i do to meet people. hehehe. it’s fun naman. I guess i’m talking to myself again… Come on dude! don’t even start! hehehe. Insanity!!! Wheeww i think thats over. Me and my friends made tambay at mcdo for 3 hours only making kwento mostly about politics then came in some past relationships, how it really sucks and how baduy we could be <– I speak like my friends from Assumption.hehehe. What am i doing!!! Does anyone even read my blog? make me a comment on this one ha!!! whoever reads it. hehehe. Its really been a while when i made my last blog. Hmmm… what can i say, news bout me??? I don’t know if you people would like to hear from me. Anyway I feel inane this past few months. It must be the effect of the electricity that nearly killed me. I was electricuted last december people! Buti nalang there was some force that saved my life. Saved my life Yoga did! Now the force within me it is. INSANITY!!! hahaha. I really have to buy the new season of smallville. Grabe isusulat nalang ang nasa isip ano? Pasensya na people, Magulo ako mag-isip pero matino naman ako kausap.hehehe. PEACE OUT!!! DUDE!!!

Korean Essay bout the Philippines…(Read it!!!)

August 6th, 2006 by mix-all-mighty

I had recently opened a chain mail not because that i use to open one but i am so curious about the title…Please pass it to all Filipinos you know.
We have plenty of Koreans currently studying in the Philippines to take advantage of our cheaper tuition fees and learn English at the
same time.

This is an essay written by a Korean student(Never mind the grammar;
it’s the CONTENTS that count) Maybe it is timely to
think about this in the midst of all the confusion
at present.
The message goes:

MY SHORT ESSAY ABOUT THE PHILIPPINES
Jaeyoun Kim

Filipinos always complain about the corruption in
the Philippines. Do you really think the corruption
is the problem of the Philippines? I do not
think so. I strongly believe that the problem is
the lack of love for the Philippines.

Let me first talk about my country, Korea.
It might help you understand my point.
After the Korean War, South Korea was one
of the poorest countries in the world. Koreans
had to start from scratch because entire country was
destroyed after the Korean War, and we had no
natural resources.

Koreans used to talk about the Philippines, for
Filipinos were very rich in Asia. We envy Filipinos.
Koreans really wanted to be well off like
Filipinos. Many Koreans died of famine.
My father & brother also died because of famine.
Korean government was very corrupt and is still very
corrupt beyond your imagination, but Korea was
able to develop dramatically because Koreans really
did their best for the common good with their heart
burning with patriotism.

Koreans did not work just for themselves but also
for their neighborhood and country. Education inspired
young men with the spirit of patriotism.

40 years ago, President Park took over the
government to reform Korea. He tried to borrow money
from other countries, but it was not possible to get a
loan and attract a foreign investment because the
economic situation of South Korea was so bad. Korea had
only three factories. So, President Park sent many mine
workers and nurses to Germany so that
they could send money to Korea to build a factory.
They had to go through horrible experience.

In 1964, President Park visited Germany to borrow
money. Hundred of Koreans in Germany came to the
airport to welcome him and cried there as they saw
the President Park. They asked to him, "President,
when can we be well off?" That was the only question
everyone asked to him. President Park cried with
them and promised them that Korea would be well
off if everyone works hard for Korea, and the President
of Germany got the strong impression on them
and lent money to Korea. So, President Park was
able to build many factories in Korea. He always
asked Koreans to love their country from their heart.

Many Korean scientists and engineers in the USA
came back to Korea to help developing country
because they wanted their country to be well off.
Though they received very small salary, they did their
best for Korea. They always hoped that their children
would live in well off country.

My parents always brought me to the places where
poor and physically handicapped people live. They
wanted me to understand their life and help them.
I also worked for Catholic Church when I was in the army.
The only thing I learned from Catholic Church was that we
have to love our neighborhood. And, I have loved my
neighborhood. Have you cried for the
Philippines? I have cried for my country several
times. I also cried for the Philippines because of so many
poor people. I have been to the New Bilibid
prison. What made me sad in the prison were the
prisoners who do not have any love for their country.
They go to mass and work for Church. They pray
everyday.

However, they do not love the Philippines. I
talked to two prisoners at the maximum-security compound,
and both of them said that they would leave the
Philippines right after they are released from the
prison. They said that they would start a new life in other
countries and never come back to the Philippines.

Many Koreans have a great love for Korea so that
we were able to share our wealth with our neighborhood.
The owners of factory and company were distributed their
profit to their employees fairly so that employees could
buy what they needed and saved money for the
future and their children.

When I was in Korea, I had a very strong faith and
wanted to be a priest. However, when I came to the Philippines,
I completely lost my faith.
I was very confused when I saw many unbelievable
situations in the Philippines. Street kids always make me sad,
and I see them everyday. The Philippines is the only Catholic
country in Asia, but there are too many poor people here.
People go to church every Sunday to pray, but nothing has
been changed.

My parents came to the Philippines last week and
saw this situation. They told me that Korea was much poorer
than the present Philippines when they
were young. They are so sorry that there are so
many beggars and street kids. When we went to Pasangjan,
I forced my parents to take a boat because
it would fun. However, they were not happy after
taking a boat. They said that they would not take the boat
again because they were sympathized the
boatmen, for the boatmen were very poor and had a
small frame. Most of people just took a boat and enjoyed it.
But, my parents did not enjoy it because of love
for them.

My mother who has been working for Catholic Church
since I was very young told me that if we just go to
mass without changing ourselves, we are not
Catholic indeed. Faith should come with action.
She added that I have to love Filipinos and do good things
for them because all of us are same and have received a great
love from God. I want Filipinos to love their
neighborhood and country as much as they love God
so that the Philippines will be well off.

I am sure that love is the keyword, which Filipinos
should remember. We cannot change the sinful structure at once.
It should start from person. Love must start in everybody,
in a s mall scale and have to grow. A lot of
things happen if we open up to love. Let’s put away
our prejudices and look at our worries with our new eyes.

I discover that every person is worthy to be
loved. Trust in love, because it makes changes possible.
Love changes you and me. It changes people, contexts and
relationships. It changes the world. Please love your
neighborhood and country.

Jesus Christ said that whatever we do to others we
do to Him. In the Philippines, there is God for people who
are abused and abandoned. There is God who is crying for love.
If you have a child, teach them how to love the Philippines.
Teach them why they have to love their neighborhood and country.
You already know that God also will be very happy if you love others.

That’s all I really want to ask you Filipinos.
(FOR THE LOVE OF OUR COUNTRY PLEASE PASS THIS MESSAGE)

Not a hero…

July 20th, 2006 by mix-all-mighty

Being someone whom you are not is the thing that really sucks. Although pretending that you are like that someone is somehow could bring you on top or rather a fool with a great fall.

Whats the difference? Being someone is already in the state of assuming that he is that "somebody". Pretending however is plain assuming the character of that "person" but not necessarily be the "person".

Right now i want to pretend that I am from a small town with a farm for a home. Doing so many chores that i can not entertain a single thought of the things i want. Having friends and family who really cares. Saving them with my life at stake. Going through everything for their sake and  being inlove is the last thing on the list.

Although I am not Clark Kent. Not a hero. and definitely not superman. But the feeling of doing something so great is the feeling that i want. No can do i gues. These things that I said may all sound crazy. But crazy as it may seem why bother reading it? Hell I may become the laughing stock of the crowd or the fool with a great fall but the thing is, if I won’t try I would’nt be "someone" of my own…

SUNDAY 9, 2006

July 9th, 2006 by mix-all-mighty

Someday i will make it, Under this twisted weather i will. Nevertheless God won’t permit me to. Day after day I always think of the possibilities of being there. Am not actually losing it. Young as i am now, i am really determined though confused…

Started to stay  focus but something is troubling me. I am not actually sure what it is but I seem missing something or someone.  Whatever/whoever that might be its mine to find it out, alone. One thing is for sure, it’s not from my past…

Sunday madness!!!

June 25th, 2006 by mix-all-mighty

No matter what decisions i will make, i always get on the right path… (i think and i hope so) Today, i am on a suicide for labor monday madness. Yes, i did not read my assigned readings. I don’t know if goin out with these friends would compensate something someday. I hope that i did’nt choose the wrong choice by making the suicide on labor monday. Not a total suicide coz i still have tmrow to review. I nearly fell for the temptation at hand. Anyway, my day was fine, exhausting but rewarding. Now i have a great friend(although she always touches my "boobies"<- the term she said). I hope she won’t forget me…   

Space between…

June 20th, 2006 by mix-all-mighty

You cannot quit me so quickly
Is no hope in you for me
No corner you could squeeze me
But I got all the time for you, love
The Space Between
The tears we cry
Is the laughter keeps us coming back for more
The Space Between
The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep us safe from the pain

But will I hold you again?
These fickle, fuddled words confuse me
Like ‘Will it rain today?’
Waste the hours with talking, talking
These twisted game we play

We’re strange allies
With warring hearts
What wild-eyed beast you be
The Space Between
The wicked lies we tell
And hope to keep us safe from the pain

Will I hold you again?
Will I hold…

Look at us spinning out in
The madness of a roller coaster
You know you went off like a devil
In a church in the middle of a crowded room
All we can do, my love
Is hope we don’t take this ship down

The Space Between
Where you’re smiling high
Is where you’ll find me if I get tickled
The Space Between
The bullets in our firefight
Is where I’ll be hiding, waiting for you
The rain that falls
Splash in your heart
Ran like sadness down the window into…
The Space Between
Our wicked lies
Is where we hope to keep safe from pain

Take my hand
‘Cause we’re walking out of here
Oh, right out of here
Love is all we need here
The Space Between
What’s wrong and right
Is where you’ll find me hiding, waiting for you
The Space Between
Your heart and mine
Is the space we’ll fill with time
The Space Between…

Sense of direction (Confused)

June 15th, 2006 by mix-all-mighty

Yesterday i got the beating that i wanted(not literally). God!!! i was sooo tired. I went to cannon service at makati and their service is so inefficient. I waited for almost an hour before i got the camera that i went there for. After my class, i run some errand for my kuya’s business. First day of class, i was absent for my 1st class because of some priorities. I thought i could straighten up my life for just this year. But who am i kidding, first day palang i screwed it up already. Our professor had a survey, wether we pursue law or not; where will we take law; what will we do if we would not. When my turn came, i said i am still undecided. I was uncertain if what should i answer. Then with some applause of ridicule surfaced, i didnt bother to answer him at all. I just told him that i am not sure yet. Too many things that was on my mind that i couldnt say where to start. Oh well… I guess im still confused.

A dream in the Night…

March 5th, 2006 by mix-all-mighty

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Lost in confusion and total self bliss
I’ve found the relation between dream and wish
A dream is a fantasy lived only while asleep
But a wish has a compass vast, far and deep.
A dream can bring true, the wish never thought
As your mind wanders aimlessly and feelings are sought.
But a wish is a simple, momentous undertaking
A grasping of things while still in the making.
Now my understanding of wish and of dreams
Have broadened my scope - or so it would seem
But still I’m confused and nothing is clear
Because you are a wish, yet a dream so dear.
With the breath of each day, I wish for your sight
Visions of loveliness turned to dreams in the night
You’ve become such a fantasy with realistic tones
I long for your love and time spent alone
Sadly enough my dreams cause confusion
For all their purpose are mear illusion
And though the dawn of each day may be cheerful to sight
I fear the darkness and my continuing fight.
For now its a war - a battle within
A dreadful nightmare which rationality must win
What should I do? Where shall I begin?
Should I ask for your love or remain a dear friend?
In my dreams youre my dearly beloved and my world is complete
But in life your a martyr to hope so elite
I’ve grown to know you and care with a passion
But fear lies within mutual attraction.
If I am to approach you with some indication
Would I strengthen our friendship or cause detonation?
This is the confusion, the struggle, the fight,
Until I am sure, youll remain  a dream in the night…

March 4th, 2006 by mix-all-mighty

Ander "Heaven" by Los Lonely Boys

Save me from thi s prison
Lord, help me get away

‘Cause only you can save me now
  this misery

Picture059Well I’ve been lost in my own place
And I’m getting’ weary

How far is heaven?
And I know that I need to change
My ways of living
How far is heaven?
Lord, can you tell me?

Picture082I’ve been locked up way too long
In this crazy world

How far is heaven?
I just keep on prayin’, Lord
I just keep on livin’
How far is heaven?
(Oh, Lord, can you tell me?)
How far is heaven?
(I just gotta know how far it is)
How far is heaven?
(Oh, Lord, can you tell me?)

Picture057_1‘Cause I know there’s a better place
In this place I’m livin’

How far is heaven?
So I just got to show some faith
And just keep on givin’
How far is heaven?
(Oh, Lord can you tell me)
How far is heaven?
(I just gotta know how far it is)
How far is heaven?
(Oh, Lord, can you tell me?)
How far is heaven?
I just gotta know how far
I just wanna know how far